Ich habe...
ihm gerade eine Email gesendet:
Hi ...,
first of all I love you.
The next thing is that I want to tell you something. I am not mad at you or whatever. But I have to tell you some things:
So, where do I start...
There are some things what you cannot do with me and I will tell you this now. You asked me for example what "my baby" is doing. All great and fine. But I don`t want you to treat me as your little baby. I mean, I know who I aam, what I can and where I stand. And for me it has to do with respect.
The next thing has to do with the fact for you, seeing me as a sexy person. That is in one way ok and the next one not. I know that I am goodlooking and I always get to hear this from all guys. But sexy is a wort for me that also has to do with respect. I mean, you can call the other girls sexy. But I am more than that. I don`t need to pose myself on pages to get attention. I get this by the way, I am.
I was choosing you, because I saw you different from other guys. I mean, thats normal for me that all guys cannot forget about me and I get every week calls and messages that I am special and they want to meet me. But you know, that
s not enough for me. I want someone who can see me as a strong character and can respect me in any ways. I will never change for someone. I will always be the person I am and I like me for the person I am. It is not easy for me to love someone, because superficiality and this guy has to be intelligent too. I mean, I need someone in my life who treat me with all respect and someone I can communicate on the same level. That is very important for. The 2nd important thing is sex. It means all for me.
I am not afraid to say what is on my mind and I like the direct conversation without any regrets. I see that you see me as your litte baby and that makes you totally unattractive for me. I love you. There is no way. But you think that youre intelligent enough to hold me as your little baby. I have to tell you know that you don
t own me and you will never do. I have my own individuality and if you can`t accept that, there is no way to hold you.
I know how you can be and I can tell you, if you will go this way more and more, you will lose me one day. I dont like guys who don
t know what they want in their life and that makes you unattractive for me too.
I know that you have a job, where you have to concentrate. But I can tell you that I expect a lot of more to be together with someone. That youre acting this way, that doesn
t really show me your intelligence. And I don`t like unintelligent men. That is sooooooooo unattractactive for me.
Now I let you think about my words. And dont try to find excuses because of working so hard or whatever. Because that really don
t impress me much...
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Eigentlich mach ich es ja nicht. Aber ich ticke auch nicht mehr aus, wie noch am Anfang. Dann weiß er ja, dass er es mit mir machen kann. Man muss halt den Spieß rumdrehen. Dass sich so viele Männer bei mir melden und wieder eine Beziehung wollen, stimmt. Kann ich ja ganz beiläufig mal erwähnen. Wenn ich ihm eine gehörige Standpauke verpasse, weiß ich ja, dass es mich ärgert. Und das macht mich noch viel unattraktiver. Deswegen sollte man so tun, als wenn es einem nichts ausmacht. Aber mein Skopion meinte mal, dass er meine direkte Art mag und er das direkte auch gebrauchen kann. Und er hat selber geschrieben, dass er weiß, wie er sein kann und wie ich sein kann und das wir gemeinsam daran arbeiten. Aber weißt du, wenn ich vor ihm Schwäche zeige, dann findet er mich total unerotisch und zieht sich zurück. Es muss für ihn immer ein gewisser Reiz vorhanden sein. Wenn ich ihn nicht lieben würde und wenn ich noch nicht so weit wäre mit ihm wie jetzt, würde ich es auch beenden. Aber dennoch sollte er nicht vergessen, dass es gewisse Grenzen gibt und wenn er die überschritten hat, könnte es irgendwann mal zu spät sein. Hab ich ihm ja so geschrieben.